Depression is really setting in for me. I fluctuate between 261 and 272 regularly. I'm truely embarrassed of my weight. I've tried getting my hair fixed to make me feel better about myself, but no hairstyle looks good on a head and face as fat as mine. I've got to do something and got to do something NOW!
I'm so mad at myself for getting this big. I can't believe I wear a size 24 now. I thought I was big at size 20! I've had 4 children, the last 3 were c-section. I've used the excuse of c-sections to excuse my ugly tummy. I used to look at women that had those bellies that hung down to their knees and think OMG why don't they do something! Now I have a sagging tummy, although not quite as bad but will it eventually get that way?!?!
I was reading how these blogs are making people more "responsible" for their weight loss. I have the tools, I just need to use them. Its seems I always have excuses, I'm too tired, the weather is bad, I don't have time because I have to take the kids someplace. I'm working 2 jobs.
I need help, but I also know I need to help myself.
More later, I'm still pretty overwhelmed at having decided to do this and not planned what I was going to say.
Connie December 2010
